music monday// i refuse

hi guys! music tiiiime! :) 

there are times when it's so hard for me to actually do what i know Christ has called me to do. i feel kind of numb. and numb is never a good thing. i can get so wrapped up in my own little world that i ignore to give the smile, the kind word, the helping hand, the seed i know i should give. i kinda forget i'm the salt and light of the world. and although it's ok for the salt and light to have issues, {i'm still human. i feel, i hurt}, i forget that i shouldn't let the issues take over and shroud the Light within me. this song is real and full of truth and speaks to my tendency to activate numbmode. 

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i don't want to shrug off the tiny hands that reach out for help. and if i have nothing to offer, i can give my smile. {but thing is, the more you smile, the more they cling to you, not wanting to let go. sometimes it's a real struggle for me to be nice all the time. i'm so guilty of not caring sometimes, i'm smack embarrassed about it. but that's what the Word is supposed to do right? to convict you and call you to action.

 thing is, i want to give, but i want to make sure what i give directly benefits the kids, not the healthy looking adults who sit by and make them ask for alms on the streets. it annnoys me that they sit back, relaxed in a shade and 'use' their kids when they could take up odd jobs to make something for themselves. welp, the plan for now is to give these kids something edible that would go to their rumbling bellies.}

 here goes...

i refuse ~ josh wilson

sometimes, i just want to close my eyes and act like everyone's alright when no, they're not.

this world needs God, but it's easier to stand and watch.

i could say a prayer and just move on like nothing's wrong. but i refuse.

cause i don't wanna live like i don't care, i don't wanna say another empty prayer

oh, i refuse to sit around and wait for someone else to do what God has called me to do myself

oh, i could choose not to move but i refuse.

i can hear the least of these crying out so desperately

and i know we are the hands and feet of You, oh God.

so if You say move, it's time for me to follow through

and do what i was made to do and show them who You are.

...but i refuse to stand and watch the weary and lost cry out for help

i refuse to turn my back and try and act like all is well

i refuse to stay unchanged to wait another day to die to myself

i refuse to make one more excuse.

"the King will reply, 'truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.' "then He will say to those on His left, 'depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. for when I was hungry you gave me nothing to eat, i was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, i needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.' matthew 25:40-41

this song convicts me all the time, and i hope it does the same for you too. i pray it moves you to action to love, to proclaim the Gospel, to care. even when it hurts.

we've been called for important purposes.

xoxo

delali.