Waiting in hope

Hi guys! So, I’ve been a lil MIA huh. Well, I’m here now. :)

For many years, I’ve waited. Waited on the Lord for His promises to take root in my life and bloom. Sometimes it seems as if it’s going to take forever for what I pray for to show up, while other times without a beat, God faithfully answers my silent prayers. (yeah, including the ones I'm too embarrassed to say. *facepalm*)

“But I will hope continually, and will yet praise thee more and more.” Psalm 71:14

I’ve prayed and waited for big things. Big things like...

Healing and good health when I was particularly ill some years ago. Like, weird, serious sick when the doctors couldn’t figure out what was wrong, and yet I miraculously got healed. Praise Jesus.

A change of heart on a particular night when I knelt in prayer & for real laid it all at Jesus’ feet and surrendered, as hot tears trickled down. I rededicated this life of mine back to its Creator, the one who knows best. The most important decision ever I’ve made is to accept Jesus as my very own sweet Savior. This is a daily wait, a daily dying to self as God purifies me & plucks out all the weeds in my heart.

Provision for school...for mission trips.

My sanity. (The kind of crazy I deal with aint easy, people!)

Good friendships... for a heart that refuses to give up on healthy, Godly friendships despite some of the rotten ones I’ve had. Aint cool when friendships end up being one-sided and, I don’t know about you but I don’t dig being the third wheel either. Ya feel me? It’s not friendship when they try to make you beg for their attention.

Good grades.

My undergraduate studies. I’m thankful I graduated successfully after four looong years!

 

“So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth;
It shall not return to Me void,
But it shall accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.” Isaiah 55:11

And I’ve waited and prayed for ‘little’ things like...

Not snoozing the alarm when it goes off and actually getting my sleepy self to rouse.

A good night’s rest.

The rain holding up on a day I forget my umbrella.

Getting a seat on the bus early, to avoid too much hassle.

Hoping the food i just ate isn't sticking in between my teeth. 

The soles of my shoes not wearing out too fast, cos God knows I do lotsss of walking lately, especially on work days. (I’m serious guys.)

And the list goes on...

As I’m thankful to God for answering most of my prayers, new prayers are making their way up to Him. And all I can do is wait. 

“But if we hope for what we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.” Romans 8:24

In this season of my life, God is reminding me to wait in hope. No matter how fast I wish and pray for my one year mandatory service of work to my country to end, I’ll just have to wait. Why do I want it to end you ask? Cos what I’m doing is not really my passion, and of course, the allowance is nothing to talk of. You can barely save from it. The government aint paying well for the hours I put in and it totally drives me nuts knowing that I could be somewhere else on the globe, and making more for the same amount of hours I’m putting in. It’s like my labour isn’t valued, and that’s.not.cool. So you see, low motivation right there. But like you wait for a convenient time to give in to that bad itch in that super awkward spot, I will wait and work as though I’m working for the Lord. This too shall pass.

“Rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing instant in prayer.” Romans 12:12

 

I’m praying big, adult prayers...I’m trusting God, like reaaallly trusting Him to honor the prayers I pray for my Godly man. I’m waiting in hope, leaving God to write out my love story, believing that at His right and perfect time, the man He knows deserves my heart will come and really pursue me, and I wouldn’t have to compete or beg for his love. I’m trusting that wherever on this earth he may be, our paths and stories will intertwine in God’s time. Because really, in God’s time, He makes ALL things beautiful. It may seem like a fantasy or even wishful thinking to believe that a man who loves Jesus with all His heart exists and is somewhere also waiting to meet me, to love on me, but it’s oh, so real. I’m walking by faith, not by sight so...

 I will wait in hope.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews 11:1

For all the dreams & plans I have for my future, I’m leaving the details to my Father, whose thoughts are higher and waayyyy better than mine. I’m in safe hands. 

“Blessed is the man that trusts in the Lord, and whose hope is the Lord. For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters, which spreads out its roots by the river, and will not fear when heat comes; but its leaf will be green, and will not be anxious in the year of drought, nor will cease from yielding fruit.” Jeremiah 17:7,8

The wait isn’t easy. The wait is tough, it’s hard, scary even. But it’s going to be so SO worth it.

And like John Waller rightfully says,

I will serve You while I’m waiting,
I will worship while I’m waiting.

Wait on the Lord. xoxo 

Delali.