thursday tunes//I am no victim

hey, hey, hey, lovely humans! :)

although its only been a couple of months i've been away from this space it feels like forever since i spilled some of the sunshiny, colorful words Father has given to my care for you here.

it's not a monday nor a tuesday but who says i can't share a song on a thursday? hihihihi

 so this evening, i came across this song and in a few seconds it got me hooked.

it spoke to me so much that i just had to share. :)

 enjoy!

I am no victim~bethel music

I am no victim

I live with a vision

I'm covered by the force of love

Covered in my Savior's blood

I am no orphan

I'm not a poor man

The Kingdom's now become my own

And with the King I've found a home

He's not just reviving, not simply restoring

greater things have yet to come

greater things have yet to come

He is my Father

I do not wonder

If His plans for me are good

If He'll come through like He should

'Çause He is provision and enough wisdom

To usher in my brightest days

To turn my mourning into praise

He's not just reviving, not simply restoring

greater things have yet to come

greater things have yet to come

I am who He says I am

He is who He says He is

I'm defined by all His promises

Shaped by every word He says

I am no victim

I live with a vision

I'm covered by the force of love

Covered in my Savior's blood

I am no orphan

I'm not a poor man

The Kingdom's now become my own

And with the King I have a home

it took a while for me to come to this powerful understanding. I AM NOT A VICTIM!

no matter what I've had to painfully endure because of other people's terrible mistakes and poor life choices, no matter how their choking words have pierced my heart, i refuse to see myself as a victim and live with a victim mentality.

why? because I believe I have my loving Father in heaven and He cares about me, He adores me, He wants me, He loves me even when people I thought were best in displaying His love for me treat me with such absurdity, cruelty and shove me aside with their unbelievably cold and hurtful words and silently loud actions.

i've had to endure some things these past months that have left me wondering and questioning and just trying to really understand how some folks who say they are Christian leaders could say and do certain things that arr so way out of line as the leaders they say they are.

and after much introspection and lots of time spent with the Lord i've finally reached that understanding that ever human walking the surface of the earth is a broken cistern. no matter how 'good' of a person they are or pose to be and no human or thing could ever fill the void in the human heart. only God through Jesus Christ His Son and the power of His Holy Spirit can do that if we believe.

 i've come to the point where i've stopped looking forward to any human loving me perfectly as my Father in heaven does. His approval of me is enough for me and His love is all i've ever needed. and sometimes He uses humans who allow themselves to be the physical extension of His love to show me His care and love like one loving and thoughtful uncle I have in australia but not even he could ever love me perfectly as my Father in heaven.

i won't deny the yearning of  enjoying being part of a loving and peaceful home. but till then, i'm thankful for the beautiful glimpses Father God gives me of His amazing promises to me on earth and in Heaven. i am grateful for the short and sweet experiences He gives me as i taste what it is like to be loved by a set of humans i can call family who make me feel like i belong. as brief as those moments are, i cherish them.

i am grateful.

 i understand my Father God better now.

i understand myself better now, 

and i understand other humans better now and why they can be so unstable and cold, and hurtful and mean and insecure and envious and how it drives them to do the unthinkable.

i understand why i love anne of green gables and akeelah and the bee so much too. :D

my Father in Heaven has promised me that He has not left me as an orphan. He is right here with me through His Holy Spirit.

as i yield myself to Him, and obey Him and deeply depend on Him, i'm good to go!

it's true, we're all searching and looking to be loved.

i've stopped my search, thank God!!!

i am now the one allowing myself to be the vessel to pour my Father's love and hope into little hearts that are hungry for love and affection. hearts that are desperate to be seen, known, loved.

so no. i am not a victim!

i am a victor through my Jesus Christ!

i am more than a conqueror through Him who loves me.

i refuse to be the hurt who keeps hurting others.

i put an end to that demonic cycle.

i am not a victim.

 i am LOVED!

I don't know what you have endured in your journey till now, i don't know what you are currently enduring but what i do know is if you believe in Jesus, you are no longer an orphan left in this cold, difficult world. You are His child now, so stop striving to be loved. stop looking for love in all the wrong places. stop thinking God created you to suffer on your on in this life.

He sees you, He knows you! He wants you to stop striving. 

He wants you to accept His love (Jesus) and all that comes with Him as a gift to you.

just believe.

It's really worth it.

i have tasted and seen that He is good! :)

Psalm 68:5 says, “Father of the fatherless and protector of widows, is God in his holy habitation.”

Deuteronomy 10:18 says, “He ensures that orphans and widows receive justice. He shows love to the foreigners living among you and gives them food and clothing.”

Psalm 10:14 says, “But you, God, see the trouble of the afflicted. You consider their grief and take it in hand. The victims commit themselves to you; you are the helper of the fatherless.”

"I will not leave you as orphans. I will come to you." ~ Jesus // John 14:18

"Let us acknowledge the Lord, let us press on to acknowledge Him. As surely as the sun rises, He will appear, He will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth. " ~ hosea 6:3

you are not a victim.

you are loved! :)

delali,

xoxo.

Blewuu... Gently

Yaaayyyy! So today is World Poetry Day! In view of this I would like to share a poem by one of my favorite poets, Kofi Anyidoho, who’s my professor and one of my mentors! :) Drumrollssss....

Blewuu... blewuu... Akofa, blewuuu...

Words are birds: they fly so fast too far

for the hunter’s aim. 

Words are winds: sometimes they breeze gentle

upon the smiles our hearts may wear for joy.

They fan the sweat away from fever’s brow.

They lull our minds

To sleep upon the soft breast of Earth.

Yet soon too soon words become the mad dreams of storms:

They howl through caves, through joys, into shrines of thunderbolts.

They leave a ghost on guard at memory’s door.

Therefore gently... gen-tly... Akofa, ge-nt-ly...

Take care what images of life

your tongue may carve for show

at carnivals of weary souls.

Blewuu is an Ewe word which simply means 'gently' and Anyidoho addresses someone-Akofa, and advices her on how to practice caution when using words.

There’ve been times I said things and even wrote things to people which I regretted later, you know. Words that you wish you could take back, words you utter and almost immediately feel horrible for. This piece reminds me to pull my brakes on words that tear down rather than build up and words which are never meant to be said. 

I pray you also remember to mull over your words before uttering them especially when you feel negative emotions like anger. Whenever we feel like spewing out harsh words, let’s remember to take a deep breath and try really, really hard to respond calmly. I know.  It’s tempting, even sometimes weirdly relieving, to give a deep cutting retort to someone when they offend you but let gentleness win the battle. Let’s heal with our words, not break people down with them.

Please don't go breaking wounded hearts with your words. Pinky promise?...

“A gentle tongue is a tree of life, but perverseness in it breaks the spirit.” Proverbs 15:4

“Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer every one.” Colossians 4:6

“When words are many, transgression is not lacking, but he who restrains his lips is prudent.” Proverbs 10:19

“Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the body.” Proverbs 16:24

“I tell you, on the day of judgement men will render account for every careless word they utter; for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.” Matthew 12;36,37

“Let no evil talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for edifying, as fits the occasion, that it may impart grace to those who hear.” Ephesians 4:29

"Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits." Proverbs 18:21

Let's learn to always read and appreciate good poetry! Have yourself a Happy World Poetry Day!!! xoxo

Delali.