Showing posts with label pain. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pain. Show all posts

Monday, 30 March 2015

music monday// all this time

It’s interesting how we come to seek and find God when things fall apart, right? When things are rainbows and flowers and sunshine we get comfortable and likely to be lax in our pursuit of the Lord. Well, for me, I came to find Him when my life was unraveling at the seams. Like britt nicole, I’ve gone through and still going through some family dysfunctional situations and the Lord has been my strength through it all.


What’s a girl to do when the already-imperfect-and-chaotic nest is knocked out from beneath her? Get serious and seek her Creator right? But of course, gen didn't immediately do that. I tried to fill the voids with wrong relationships till my heart screamed “enough!” and Holy Spirit guided my steps to pursue my only Comforter and true Love.

I don’t know about your situation. But whether it’s family issues, emotional effects of divorce of your parents or going through a divorce yourself, pain from a broken courtship/relationship, betrayal of a trusted friend, suffering wounds from an accident…whatever your condition may be, the healer of that pain is Jesus Christ! There's no shame in admitting your struggles. Lay them at His feet, He’s willing to comfort you, I promise.

 all this time~ britt nicole
I remember the moment, I remember the pain
I was only a girl but I grew up that day
Tears were falling, I know You saw me
Hiding in my bedroom, so alone
I was doing my best trying to be strong
No one to turn to. That’s when I met You

All this time from the first tear cry
Till today’s sunrise and every single moment between
You were there, You were always there
It was You and I,
You’ve been walking with me all this time

Ever since that day, it’s been clear to me
That no matter what comes You will never leave
I know You’re for me and You’re restoring
Every heartache and failure, every broken dream
You’re the God who sees, the God who rescued me
This is my story, this is my story

I hear these people asking me
How do I know what I believe?
Well, I’m not the same me
And that’s all the proof I need.
I felt love, I felt Your grace.
You stole my heart that day.

“have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

“the Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and He helps me…” Psalm 28:7

“in You, Lord, I have taken refuge; let me never be put to shame; deliver me in your righteousness.” Psalm 31:1

“…fulfil your vows to the Most High, and call on Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you will honour Me.” Psalm 50:14-15

“I lift up my eyes to the mountains- where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.” Psalm 121:1-4

“though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me.” Psalm 27:10

“the righteous person may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all.” Psalm 34:19

“the name of the Lord is a fortified tower; the righteous run to it and are safe.” Proverbs 18:10

“ “but I will restore you to health and heal your wounds” declares the Lord…” Jeremiah 30:17

No pain or trauma is greater than the healing and restoration power of our Lord. He is your only true love. Cling to Him, seek Him and allow His Word wash over you like a soothing, gentle wave. He’ll put the right people in your life who’ll encourage you and support you through what you’re going through. Take heart!
xoxo, 
gen delali.

Monday, 26 January 2015

music monday// make something beautiful

This song is such comfort to me when I feel like I’m slipping into the depths of despair. I have a story to share someday. My story. A story which might be hard for you to believe. a story which leaves me sometimes wishing badly to be adopted by a fairly functional family filled with the genuine love of Jesus. The dysfunction is like acid with the tendency to eat at my veins, but I’m thankful for Jesus. Without Him, it would be extra hard! I’m in the throes of it but I know the Lord is the One who is lifting up my head and gathering me from the ash heap.
make something beautiful~ laura story
When I’m at the point of breaking at the place where I resign,
When I’m at the stage of shaking my head as I look back on my life,
When I’m halfway through the grieving, but not quite through the ache,
When I cannot see the ending, or which road I’m supposed to take,
All I know to do is lift my hands to You.

Take all of my life, all of my life,
And make something beautiful.
I open my hand, trusting Your plan.
Make something beautiful so all will see
Your work in me, as You make something beautiful

When I’m tired of pretending, and I can’t recall my lines
Do I say, I’m barely breathing, or just say, I’m doing fine.
I admit there is a yearning, for the hurting to subside,
But not at the risk of missing what You’re doing with my life
All I know to do is lift my hands to You.

Cause all I know to do is lift my hands to You,
all I know to do is lift my hands to You

“and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28

“may my prayer be set before You like incense; may the lifting up of my hands be like the evening sacrifice.” Psalm 141:2

“I will praise You as long as I live, and in Your name I will lift up my hands.” Psalm 63:4

“many are saying of me, ‘God will not deliver him.’ but You, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high.” Psalm 3:2-3

“heal me, Lord, and I shall be healed; save me and I shall be saved, for You are the One I praise.” Jeremiah 17:14

“He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap; He seats them with princes and makes them inherit a throne of honor…” 1 samuel 2:8

When I don’t understand why God is allowing me to face terrible, hard things, I remember Hannah in the Bible. 1 samuel 1:10 says: “in her deep anguish Hannah prayed to the Lord, weeping bitterly. And she made a vow, saying, ‘Lord Almighty, if You will only look on Your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life…”

I love how she was not ashamed to admit to Eli, the priest that she was hurting and troubled. 1 samuel 1:15 says:” …I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer; I was pouring out my soul to the Lord. Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief.’ “

Even In the pain, I’ve resolved to trust with my hands held high in faith and praise. This is not the time for me to wallow in the hurt and resign myself to it. I choose to lift my head and look up to my Helper and take Him at His Word when He says: for I know the plans I have for you, ‘declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

What do you do when you’re facing a horrendous mountain? Well, I sure hope you look to Jesus., pouring out your heart to Him, lifting up your hands to praise Him for the breakthrough coming your way. In the course of time, you’ll see the beauty He’s been weaving out of your pain and anguish.


xoxo, gen delali.

Thursday, 25 April 2013

The Beauty Of God


There were a number of good things that happened to me in March. One of my favorites was climbing the highest mountain in Ghana! :D If you know me well, you’ll know I love the beauty of nature and the outdoors. (I’m no Barbie doll but well, I don’t mind being one sometimes. ;) )





 
On the Bridge

After a good four hours drive from the city and enjoying beautiful scenery along the way, Mount Afadjato was finally in view and boy, could I wait to get my hike on! 


At the beginning of the hike I was all pumped like ‘yeah, let’s do this!’ But barely ten minutes after, I was panting for breath. LOL I can laugh about it now but I tell you at that moment it was no joke. I was tired already. We (my friends and I) were informed by our tour guide that it took about 45 minutes to climb and another 45 minutes to descend for an average person. So I was thinking ‘OMG with my slowing pace when will I ever get to the top of this mountain?’


The climb became more and more steep such that I had to crawl on all fours. Yessss. And I had to constantly cling on to jutting twigs and rocks on the mountain. We all had to, or else you were assured of an unfortunate free fall. And sometimes I stopped to sit on steep rocks along the way, and the view from those rocks frightened me because the ground looked so far away and my balance wasn’t that firm too.

With laboured steps and lots of water to gulp down, I climbed on. I felt so drained and had thoughts of just giving up. I was sweaty, extremely tired and my heart was racing a thousand miles a minute, I was scared...it was so crazy. I thought my chest was going to explode if I dared to continue. But of course, I dared to. I asked God to give me the strength to continue cause I’m no quitter and truly, He did. Each step I took gradually led me nearer and nearer to the peak and all along the words of Donald Miller from his book, which I blogged about here kept flashing across my mind. He said “Don’t kick yourself around if you can’t climb up out of a canyon real quick, just do it slow.” (Which in my case was climb up a mountain.) This helped me take it easy and move at my own pace. Thanks Don!

Somewhere along the steep climb, one guy voiced out what was running through my mind. I was thinking about how the whole climb and its toughness was like the Christian life...how we Christians feel like giving up walking down the narrow road, how I was tempted sometimes to change my path and go walk down the broad but dangerous road, how some problems are like giant mountains in my life and how painful it is to try and fight those mountains.


 Following Jesus’ footsteps sure gets pretty tough. But just like the joy awaiting me when I climbed to the peak, what urges me on to keep following Jesus and obeying the commandments of God is the assurance of my spot in Heaven. That’s what keeps me going in the toughest times, you know. 

As I neared the top of the mountain, I could hear the happiness in the voices of those who had already gotten there and I was like ‘oh yes! I’m almost there.’ I took all the rests I had to take until I took those final steps which landed me on Mt. Afadjato. I was so happy I had made it somehow...and I ended up being the second female among close to ten ladies. Hehehe. It felt amazing to stand there and look at the beautiful view and just enjoy the sweet breezes. 

Finally at the top
“For lo, He who forms the mountains, and creates the wind, and declares to man what is his thought; who makes the morning darkness, and treads on the heights of the earth- the Lord, the God of hosts, is His name!” Amos 4:13 


I'm thankful I didn’t even get a bruise and that nothing fatal occurred to anyone. I was just grinning and grinning and soaking in the awesomeness of the mighty works of God’s hands.

I'm thankful for my sweet friend here who carried my bag up and down the mountain :-*
After all the pictures and relaxation, it was time to descend. I must say this part was way easier and fun. It didn’t take so much effort and time, so we got to the base of the mountain in a relatively shorter time. 


Afterwards, we headed to Wli Falls (the highest in West Africa.) I was so drained and munched down my lunch on the bus in no time. It was like a ten minutes drive away so we got there pretty fast. 

 Made some shy lil friends before the hike to the Falls :) (Prayers and love to the girl in the background)

I couldn’t wait to see the falls but it took another hike (a much smoother one) and crossing of about nine bridges (I know, tough luck) to get to the Falls. But O, it was soo worth it. 

“The heavens are telling the glory of God; and the skies proclaim the work of His hands.” Psalm 19:1


The cascading water from such great heights was totally amazing (No, I’m not exaggerating.) I stood there just admiring the awesomeness of God and how great He really is for creating all of these things...the Falls, the beautiful mountains in the distance... and oh, the beautiful rainbow across the waterfall which brings to mind the covenant God has with us, never to destroy the earth with a flood. All these things dazzled me as I enjoyed God’s beauty in them. 


“And God said, “This is a sign of the covenant which I make between Me and you and every living creature that is with you, for all future generations: I set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be a sign of the covenant between me and the earth.”” Genesis 9:12,13

 
Spot the rainbow  

 No, I don't know why Tasha is holding a lappie here

On the drive back to the city, I reflected on how God is strengthening me to conquer all the mountains in this hard life, the frustrations, anger, raw pain, pride... When the pain is just too real, when the tears won’t stop flowing, when I feel numb inside and I have so many unanswered questions, I’ll always remember that no matter what, I shall overcome. I will conquer all these mountains in my path just like I did that day. And just like the peace and calm I found in gazing at the wonders of God which surrounded me, I’ll run to God and bask in His peace when peace is such a distant thought. I’ll continue to look for the good in the bad and beauty in the very ordinary.


I don’t want to forget this experience and how much it means to me. I don’t want to forget how all these great and small wonders God created can soothe my soul. I want to remember it all... 

“O Lord, how manifold are thy works! In wisdom hast thou made them all; the earth is full of thy creatures.” Psalm 104:24

 I’m looking forward to enjoying the many other wonderful things He made to make us realize His great power to remind us that if He did all these amazing things, then there’s absolutely nothing He can’t fix in our lives. The hurt, the brokenness, the grief, the sadness, the loneliness, the sickness, the confusion...He is more than capable to make all of it right.

Met Jaime and Stephanie at the Falls, and they were apparently in my hostel back on campus. Small world.
 
Are you having a hard time seeing the good in
 this messy world? Well, you’re not alone, I do too...But do take a look around you and find God’s beauty in all the mess... the beautiful flowers, the tall green-leaved trees, the cool breeze, birds flying across the blue sky, a serene beach, the streams and lakes, the ah-mazing sunrises and sunsets. Because I did, and I tell you, it was worth it. I’ve come to know that the peace I find in nature calms my troubled soul and draws me nearer to the awesome God I serve. 

Those mountains in your life are worth conquering dear. Be strong and fight on. xoxo 

Delali.

Friday, 5 April 2013

You Are More



Hi guys! I want to share a few words with you today. Sometimes less is more, right?! ;)


You are more than where you have been. You are more than the mistakes of your past. You are more than the belittled expectations placed on you. You are more than how the world defines you. You are more than the doubts and fears that hold you bondage. You are more than what people think and say of you. Everything that seeks to define who you are, everything that tries to tell you what you’re worth, is nothing compared to the way your Creator defines you. You are more. -Alessandra Ferguson

God’s Word says of you in 1 Peter 2:9 “But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.” 

“What manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called children of God! Therefore the world does not know us because it did not know Him.” 1 John 3:1 

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” 2 Corinthians 5:17 

“And you, being dead to your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, He has made alive together with Him, having forgiven you all trespasses, having wiped out the handwriting of requirements that was against us, which was contrary to us. And He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross.” Colossians 2:13-14

Dear friend, whenever you feel inadequate and the world hollers at you that you’re not good enough, please remember these words okay? Rest in the truth of who God says you are. Our identity is found only in Christ, so don’t let this world bring you down. Through it all, remember the unconditional love Jesus has for you. :) 




Have a meaningful day! xoxo

Your friend,

Delali.

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